Day I dont even know lol

Today is Monday, January 5th, 2009, a new year, a new boot camp and a new chance to succeed. I was so determined to keep blogging during the holidays but, like many of you, I had no time but also had no more energy just to get on the computer.

I have to admit, I had a very bad time. I was frustrated, discouraged and ready to quit. I did not see the results I wanted to see and being the way I am that really hurt. I took some days off my computer, refused to get back online and actually sat down and cried my eyes out for days.

It sure does help to just let my feelings take over me sometimes even though people always say that I am so tough I truly am not. My entire life people always told me that I am a tough and strong person but I always thought what in the world makes me supposedly be as tough as they all think. What if i am not such a strong person people make it sound like? What if I don't want to be as strong as they make it sound like. Like I have no problems to solve? I took those two weeks to think about my past, present and future and about the quesitons above and about everything else. Like I said before I do think a lot of $%&# sometimes lol

Ok, my goals for 2009 are as follows and NOT necessarily in the order written down lol:

• change the theme for this blog :)
• succeed financially with My Power Mall because I have many things in mind with the money I might be possibly making
• I want to pay my mom's debt off, she deserves it and I just feel like I owe this to her
• I want to buy my best friend a car, her's is becoming dangerous for traffic lol
• I want to donate money to various organizations, shelters and causes
• I want to work on myself....oh boy lol
• I want to put money for College in my son's savings account
• I want to put money for College in my nephew's savings account
• I want to give money to my sister and brother
• I want to visit Ginny Dye and Owen Ott in the States and maybe even or all boot campers, who knows, right?
• I want to quit my job or maybe just lay it off I am not really sure yet
• I want to pay my debt as well but not all debt, I do need something to worry about sometimes :)
• I do want to change people's minds. I hate the way people put others in drawers or catgorize them. Every single person is unique and deserves to be treated that way (unless they do something really bad)
• I want to have another son but before that
• I want to finally have health insurance after almost 7 years
• I want to help some other people I really care about in my area
• I want to buy my husband a car with winter tires (and summer tires lol)

Whew, I think I have covered the most important goals I have for 2009. I sure pray to God I will be able to do all this. I am glad I was chosen for the boot camp and have the opportunity to make a difference in my life. I just wish I could talk like Ginny, things would be much easier with the gift she has. I need to learn the "Ginny Talk" filled with inspiration, encouragement and support.

Ok, time for me to go to sleep, getting late here. I wish everyone a wonderful day :)